Ever Changing

A year ago I was a sorry sort. I felt sorry for not having found my mate in life. I felt unsuccessful for not yet having money coming in from my second career, five years in the planning. I still had not fully recovered healing my relationship with my only son. It felt like a holding pattern. Still, nothing is static since, in my mind, my inner and my outer worlds are ever changing.

In a year’s time, my son reached out and found the family he had all along, in the wings waiting for him. Along with him, three young children, grandchildren to me. This summer I am kid-sitting for them, three days in a row roughly 8-5 each day. Seeing them day-after-day has created such a bond. To explain I will share the text my son sent the other day. “You must be doing a good job with my children, they keep asking if you’re coming over every morning.” My belief that existence is ever changing sustained me and landed me here for this moment in time.

Since February of this year, I changed by getting engaged to be married. Its common knowledge this promise can backfire. It had for me years ago. This time, since he was afraid he would lose me, we got married. THEN moved-in together, THEN had another ceremony for our family and friends at our July wedding. It was barely what I imagined it would be, but that image was static. Quite naturally, it flowed and morphed into what it was. I’ve learned to “love what is” and in that grace, our wedding was a beautiful day for everyone involved.

By now you may wonder what happened to my Second Career? Its risen to another plain, like a bar being raised along with my awareness of all it will be from its inception and for many years to come. Now I have company! First, personal friends whose lives are culminating into refined likenesses of their most true and compassionate thoughts. Its very helpful to have a trusted friends checking-in on your progress, and likewise their progress.

I got a certification with a group that includes lifelong membership with people that are in leadership, public speaking and coaching. That’s a whole lot of company. They help with continuous progress towards my own goals, excuses set aside.

And then there is my library. For a lifetime I have collected the books that expanded my mind, awareness, imagination and creativity. This career is about how you can do the same for yourself. Stay tuned, my friends. There is much more to come. Its ever changing.